I use this analogy when friends ask me how I am doing.
Physically, prior to the event I considered myself extremely fit, able to climb to the top of Mt. Everest. Directly after the event I had fallen to the bottom of the Marianis Trench. Currently I am metaphorically swimming at sea level. The climb back to the top will probably take just as long as it took me to get into that kind of shape. Even after four years of no exercise I still am cardiovascularily fit which probably helped me survive the event.
Prior to the stroke, I too considered that I was someone who was very physically and intellectually fit. I had to be, with working 3 jobs, dancing 1 night a week, and looking after a beautiful active little dog. Since the stroke I have no life, I cannot do any job well enough to keep it, or enjoy it, the dog is dead due to injuries I caused her, and I can only dance with the assistance of my partner and the kindness of other dancers. It took me 20 years to get to that stage in my life, At 60 now, I do not have 20 years to spare to build myself up again, especially since I am going from rock bottom, instead of superior in IQ and physically strong and well.
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